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This is Insane.



I do not enjoy my Wednesdays until Four pm.

I know my blog has been a little violent
these few days,
but i just couldn't help.

MY MIND. MY MOUTH. MY FREEDOM.
YOUR MIND. YOUR MOUTH. SHEEEEZ.

Tonnes of things just stuck in my chest now.
And yes, the photo up there is just like my situation now.
Mess. A real big mess.

Tutorials I'm in now: 4.
Lecture groups I'm in now: 2.
Practical group I'm in now: 1. (luciky)

Meaning that i have different tutorials for different modules.
And i can assure you that none other than me has other people been in this arrangement.
Believe me or not.

So this week I've already stepped into three different tutorials.
And there's one more i need to face tomorrow.
Most of them have been sticked to the class for one year,
and so when i walked in there will be a "drastically" silence,
then followed by whispers of "who's that?" "How would i know?"
Then i'll have to quickly make my way to the back of the class and find a place to sit down.
Like an idiot who find the wrong class but is actually not.
Then i have to put a smile throughout the whole lesson because the students
will turn and look at me.
Well actually they are quite friendly, they smile back know. =)

Now the thing is,
there is one new tutorial that i went today (again and it's the third one)
and i was early.
so i went in there and find a place to sit down.
And there was this girl whom i don't know,
stare at me like i'm some alien.
Actually i wanted to smile at her but i think my smile will crack if i do so,
cos the way she look at me is like i'm her prey and she's gonna eat me up any moment.
Shivers right.

Thing is, after some moment of sitting there her friends came,
and i'm not the person who will stick my butt there when i see your friends come.
Talk about some sensibility alright.
So i move to the left side of the class and i seat there.

Just at this very horrendous moment,
a girl came in.
THE WORSE PART.

I tell you in my life of poly,
the last person that i want to see is her.
I know her last time, she was in my first tutorial group.

Reason why is a secret. I'm not gonna tell you.

Alright so she came in,
and my head was thinking of this "American Idiot" Song,
it goes "if you walk my way i will give you hell i will give you hell".
It just went on and on in my mind.
Alright I'm sorry! But i can't help about my brain's syndrome at that moment.
I know I'M BAD.

Alright I'm gonna go for my lecture now.
My favourite lecture.
It's PSYCHOLOGY AND SOCIOLOGY! =)

I'm gonna study this and crack her brain i tell you. Crack her brain.
Just kidding. I think my brain will crack first before hers does.

CRACK.

*Will be continued~

Some days i just hope that all these tears,
all these tears that cries out from my heart and behind my eyes,
will turn into an unbelievable strength that people can't imagine.

May your will be done my Lord.