Journal.about.YOU&mi

Thursday, January 14, 2010

"What's your 20th birthday wishes?"
This question has been repeated many times,
but each time i said it differently, cos there are too many
birthday wishes swinging in my cerebrum and gray matter.

My 20th birthday hasn't been any exciting when i'm still
drooling in the lecture hall 2 days before it turns up.

This term has been flooded with performances during the
very first week, and one of them is concert band performance,
therefore my body's oxytocin haven't remind me of my
birthday yet. Anyway I really thank God for the opportunity
to serve Him in concert band, exploring new experiences,
participating in the coordination, learning the balances of the
sounds and many many other exciting undertakings.
I'm also surprised by how God leads me to
the fluent level of playing the score- Highlights of the
Chess Musical, which makes me have greater exposure
to the ability that a human can reach just by hardwork.

I've realised that the potential in us is often
unmoved because of the absent kinetic force, therefore
i believe those people who always mentioned that they
can't achieve certain grades/goals are often caused by
the lack of the energy that pushes.

Anyway, despite the hardwork of practicing day and night,
it didn't turns out perfect on the day itself.

Main cause of the reason is because at the
last part of the performance, i'm supposed to be solo
with one clarinet, and the sound that amplifies
my keyboard is too loud during the performance,
which shocked me at that moment,
and it turned out really very very very very pathetically.

It may seems to be a human default- Yes it is.
But the fact that contribute to it is because i've
forgotten to pray before i go up the stage.
I was busy chatting with a band member at the
back stage, and all i wanted to do is to calm myself down.
It's not wrong, but there's is a huge omission-
i forgot to pray at the very last minute before it began.

I realised that each and every thing that i do will be
an corruption if i don't pray.
And this time i've ruined it because i didn't pray at the
very last moment. Sigh. So sad right?

Nevertheless, indwelling in the regrets will never allows me
to improve. So I've learnt my lesson, that
whatever that i do from now on i'll
pray and pray and PRAY no matter what,
from the very beginning till the very end of
every performances, every tests, every exams,
every powerslides, and every thing that i do!

I'm so beating around the bush right? Haha.
Actually.. NOP.
All I've mentioned up there, and the lesson that
I've learnt during this performance is the
best birthday present i've received from God.

And my wish is:
Multitudinous testimonies of God to be made this year.

This is my 20th birthday wish. =)

Dearest Sophia Yu Jiale (moi),
Happy belated 20th birthday!

Haha.

Loves.
Muah. ♥

2:12 PM

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